So I know I’ve taken a rather long hiatus, and for this I apologize. However, real life does happen, even to the best of us and unfortunately it influences aspects of our lives that we don’t want it to.
So yes, to set the story up someone I thought that would be in my life forever, a constant, stable, loving relationship is no longer in my life. My life was turned upside down, rerouted, and threw me completely out of my comfort zone for the first time in six years. For months I had no idea where my life was going and felt completely lost. I felt completely insecure and uncomfortable and was desperately seeking something to make me feel myself again.
With the help of my amazing family and fabulous friends I was able to pull myself out of this dark place and face the world again. What I found that kept me going, and not even going but smiling was putting some make up on, doing my hair, and finding that killer outfit. And guess what? Even though I was dying inside, I felt like I could take over the world. So, even in your darkest days, when you truly feel totally empty inside, you are beautiful, and you will feel worthy again. Just embrace the positivity in life. Notice the little things, and one day it will all fall into place the way it’s supposed to and you’ll look back at this moment and understand why you had to hurt in order to get to where you’re supposed to be.